the world is goin down the drain slowly.

i am worried about some of my friends and whats gong on for them.

for a couple its thier home life.

for another its his view of life.

i am angry.

i am angry at myself for all my shortcomings
for my inability to keep my friends happe
and for my lack of self confidence and pride.

i am angry at my friend for always pushing me down.
for making me feel like less than i am

i am lonley.
i am alone
i can not achive what i desire cause i am me
to shy, to depressed, to insane. excuses
i am dissapointed in me.

i am sad
because of all i cannot do
all i cannot help
and everytime i let someone down

i feel like screaming, i feel like smashing a wal to splinters. but then i feel guilty and sad. i an a mixture of emotion i do not show. because i have to remain neutral. independant.

but it leaves me alone
it makes me long for a change.
it makes me me.

and there is nothing i can do.